This has been a pretty busy week! Today is the Thursday of the second week of our break. As it comes to a close, work thoughts are creeping in š« This week has gone by way too fast!
On Monday morning, I had a call with a practicing psychic, meaning she was practicing her skills on me for no charge. I thought she was pretty good. She said two people (spirits) showed up for me right away and described my grandma and grandpa.
They said a few things, nothing really noteable, but something my grandma said sat with me.
“She just wants you to know that you are loved.” is what the psychic told me.
Basic, I know, and general. But, here’s the thing.. not being liked is an issue I have within myself. I’m oftentimes gauging whether or not people like me. Now, I realize that them liking me, hating me or being indifferent has nothing to do with me. It’s irrelevant to my life and basically none of my business. So, when I get the feeling that someone doesn’t like me, I brush it off and tell myself that haters gonna hate, and he/she is just a miserable twat, etc.
But, what if it wasn’t? What if I could just assume that everyone likes me, unless they state otherwise. I don’t like judging people, and try not to, but isn’t this exactly what I’m doing?
Furthermore, why do I always get this feeling- is it because it’s really me that doesn’t like me? I think, or thought, that I liked myself just fine, but now I wonder considering the thoughts I have.
Coincidently, (as if I believe in coincidences š¤£š), I started and finished my mandala that same day.
The āMandalaā Iām referring to is pretty much a vision board. Itās an activity that correlates with the Lotus and the Lily soul program.
My thoughts before and while making it centered around this idea about being liked or not. I determined that in order to solve this, I just need to open my heart completely. Just like Michael Singer has been telling me for years via his book, The Untethered Soul.
So my the conditions for manifesting came onto my board as Love. I will do my best to give Love freely, receive Love freely, thank Love freely and to feel Love freely.
I think itās absolutely perfect, totally fitting and will open doors that may be inconceivable at the current moment.
I added some other favorites onto my mandala, such as the Hāoponopono prayer, and actions to take for an awesome and joyful life as well as the name of my year, River Lo Goes With the Flow.
My nickname is Lo & the name means to just go where life takes me, riding it downstream. Like Abraham Hicks says, āNothing that you want is upstream.ā
One of the areas I need to focus growing is to lessen my resistance to things, āgoing with the flowā you might say. To me, this looks like saying yes, whenever I can- even if itās very last minute.
I knew that would go on my mandala for a few weeks now, and it coincidentally goes perfectly with opening up my heart ā¤ļø

There are some material or tangible items that I planned on putting on my board, but it just didnāt fit in, and seemed completely unnecessary and frivolous.
It was exciting for me to look at the 3 boards Iāve made to compare.
My boards are pictured below, in chronological order:



The one is very basic. Rainforest vacation, long hair, fitness, healthy family, healthy marriage. I guess I was really aiming to be healthy š¤£š¤£š And boy was I!!! I made this in the fall of 2019, and 2020 was maybe my healthiest year yet.
The best part of this mandala was the unintentional things that occurred (to read more about it, see link below)
I was trying to obtain more healthy habits, and feel that I succeeded- at least when it came to physical health.
By the time I did the Lotus book a second time, I was sharpening my spiritual health. I put ideas such as āThink, Believe, Imagineā for Manifesting and strengthening my intuition and psychic abilities. Itās broken down into 3 learning areas- Spiritual, Mental and Physical. Itās easy to see how these ideas are deeper than my first board.
Now thereās the 2023 mandala. It has no pictures, but the mandala itself is a picture. Most of the phrases would not make sense to most people- but itās meaningful to me.
Magic is my word for 2023, but I donāt think that made it onto my board š¤¦š»āāļø
I wonder what kind of magic this mandala will bring me.
I wonder what my next mandala will be like ā„ļø
What a great exercise! I get the worried-about-feeling-liked thing. I used to worry about that constantly (maybe it is a common thing for those of us that like to bury our feelings with alcohol). I like the way you are exploring the feeling now. Great post!
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Thank you so much! I think youāre right- itās that void feeling weāre looking to fill & I think itās that same feeling that makes us feel unliked š
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Synchronicity. When you mentioned The Untethered Soul, my eyes left the article to re-notice my own copy of the book sitting in front of me on my coffee table. Lol. Iām going to try making my own mandala. Love your ideas.
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Love that synchronicity!! Good luck with the mandala – its a beautiful process āŗļø
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